When religious strife it is our duty and responsibility as Christians to remain quiet and pray. God will speak to you when He is ready. Last Thursday I was walking outside to my car at work because I had left a canned soda in the car. It gets so hot here that it would have exploded leaving sticky residue all over my car. So in haste I went outside to get my soda can. I was not even five steps outside the door when I heard the bells calling the Carmelite nuns to prayer. I just stopped and closed my eyes and listened. At that moment I was at peace. I was calm. I knew what I needed to do again in my life. Where God wanted me.
I ran back inside when the bells stopped. I began to google Anglican nuns. Know give you some back story when I think nuns I think catholic school teachers with rulers. I remember failing Latin and being told I was failing Latin because Satan had a hold of me. But then I knew nuns to be fun because I remember the show about the flying nun. Which interesting side note, she was playing a Daughters of Charity nun which is dedicated nuns of the Catholic faith. They used to wear those traditional large white habits as their uniform in the 1960s. But the question became doe Anglicans have nuns? There are episcopal nuns but was the Anglican Church able to have a group of nuns as well? The answer to the question is yes. These nuns can be married as well. These women often do not do the monastic life but go out into the public and provide charity to those in need.
When I was five I ran up to my parents and told them I wanted to be a priest. I enjoyed the idea of wearing black and the collar. I realize women in the priesthood is wrong on multiple levels of the Anglican Church but there must be some way to serve in that kind of function. Just like me at age five I give everything to everyone that I have even if it leaves me with nothing because we are here on this life to serve and help others. Before getting married to my husband, I lived with few items. A table, books, and bed. I had a computer for work and a TV which I used to play music but there was nothing. I sat on lawn furniture in my living room for years. I only got the lawn furniture in the living room so my mother and dad could sit somewhere instead of being on the floor. I found peace with the clarity and cleanliness. I would read the Bible and study.
There is a position women can be appointed to in the Anglican Church which is deaconess. I will be writing about that next week because it is an amazing and honorable position that a women can be bestowed with through God and the Church. I cannot say how God spoke to me through Church bells. He just did. He reawakened that desire of my five year old wanting to take care of others as my primary responsibility and showing individuals how great and good God is. That it is not about the great large acts of charity but the small every day activities we do to be nice. The miracles Jesus performed were great and magnificent but also he performed small unselfish acts every day for those society saw a least deserving. Being a Christian is not just something we do on Sundays but something that we must do every day. It make take me several years before I can spend every day at Church performing ritual and taking care of others. However at least there is a new end. I am not stuck in what I am doing now but it is instead just something to move me closer to reaching the position where God wants me to go in this life. It is important though not to lose hope or faith because God will talk to everyone who accepts and desires Him.
Till next week may God bless you and keep you forever. In Christ Alone.
R. Send out Thy light and Thy truth, that they may lead me.
V. And bring me unto Thy holy hill, and to Thy dwelling.
R. O let us live.
V. And we shall call upon Thy name.
R. Turn us again, O Lord God of Hosts.
V. Show the light of thy countenance, and we shall be whole.
Grant, we beseech Thee, Almighty and Merciful God, that Thy Holy Spirit may come unto us, and dwell in us, and make us to be a worthy temple of Thy glory. Through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.